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Sunday, March 10th, 2002
5:34 pm - quizzzzzzzzzzz-time!!!

Which Buff Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
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Who's Your Inner Buffy Bad-Girl? Find out @ She's Crafty

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I should be a member of Pierrot!

I was meant to be a member of Pierrot! I'm not too wild, but not too bland, either -- just the right mix of both, and a well-kept secret.


Take the "Which J-Rock Band Should You Be a Member Of?" quiz by malloreigh


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You're Nosferatu!! How gay!
You silly goth! I didn't think
that anyone would get this
fang faced reject,
but you did! You're cheesy,
and you stink of blood.
You're ugly, gay, worthless,
and goth!
Goth Goth Goth!
Goth Goth!
Goth!
What Horror Movie Villian am I?

[Rank #1 equals your best match Item

Your Results Page # 1 Nosferatu
# 2 Pinhead
# 3 Terri Cenobite
# 4 EvilAsh
# 5 Freddy Kreuger
# 6 Jason
# 7 Blade
# 8 Myers ]

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my LotR - chara
# 1 Galadriel
# 2 Tom Bombadil
# 3 Elrond
# 4 Gandalf Mithrandir
# 5 Sauron
# 6 Aragorn (Strider)
# 7 Saruman
# 8 Bilbo Baggins
# 9 Meriadoc Brandybuck (Merry)
# 10 Theoden
# 11 Treebeard (Fangorn)
# 12 Denethor
# 13 Lord of the Nazgul (Witch-King of Angmar)
# 14 Peregrin Took (Pippin)
# 15 Faramir
# 16 Legolas
# 17 Samwise Gamgee (Sam)
# 18 Frodo Baggins
# 19 Gollum (Smeagol)
# 20 Grima Wormtongue
# 21 Eomer
# 22 Barliman Butterbur
# 23 Boromir
# 24 Gimli
# 25 Eowyn

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Yuoo ere-a zee Svedeesh Cheff!
Yuoo ere-a a guud cuuk, thuoogh yuoo cun't speek Ingleesh fery vell. Bork Bork Bork!



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Which 1980's Hair Band Are You?


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Which Firearm are you?
brought to you byStan Ryker



Rank #1 equals your best match Item

Your Results Page # 1 Alliant Techsystems OICW
# 2 FN P90
# 3 H&K PDW
# 4 H&K G11
# 5 M4A1 w/M203 Grenade Launcher
# 6 H&K MP-5
# 7 H&K PSG-1
# 8 Steyr AMR
# 9 Dragunov Sniper Rifle
# 10 Kalashnikov AK-47
# 11 H&K CAWS
# 12 Glock 17
# 13 Franchi SPAS-12
# 14 H&K HK69A1
# 15 GE XM214 Minigun
# 16 H&K SOCOM
# 17 IMI UZI
# 18 MAC-10
# 19 Beretta M92
# 20 Desert Eagle
# 21 FA-MAS
# 22 Vektor CP1
# 23 Colt M1911A1
# 24 Taurus Raging Bull
# 25 Ruger Super Redhawk


uffff!!! thats more as enough!

current mood: ./.

(3 BRAIN FUCKs | � fuck my mind �)

Thursday, February 28th, 2002
1:14 am - come sweet death...
i know, i know i've let you down
i've been a fool to myself
i thought i could
live for no one else
but not through all the hurt and pain
its time for me to respect
the ones you love
mean more than anything
so with sadness in my heart
i feel the best thing i could do
is end it all
and leave forever
whats done is done, it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
i'll never love again
my world is ending

i wish that i could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
cant live without the trust from the ones you love.
i know we can't forget the past
you cant forget love and pride
because of that its killing me inside

it all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down,
it all returns to nothing, i just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down,
in my heart of hearts,
i know that i called never love again
i've lost everything
everything
that matters to me,
matter in this world

i wish that i could turn back time
cos now all the guilt is mine
cant live without
the trust from those you love
i know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love and pride
because of that, its killing me inside

it all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
it all returns to nothing, i just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down
it all returns to nothing, it all comes
tumbling down, tumbling down,
tumbling down
it all returns to nothing, i just keep
letting me down, letting me down,
letting me down...


current mood: blank

(1 BRAIN FUCK | � fuck my mind �)

Saturday, February 23rd, 2002
8:15 pm - trent, oh my trent!



What era of Trent Reznor are you? Take the What Trent Are You? quiz to find out!
Quiz by lady_xanax!


current mood: vengeful

(� fuck my mind �)

Friday, February 22nd, 2002
11:41 pm - victory...!


current mood: sad

(� fuck my mind �)

3:15 pm - >-<;;;
..also wer heute nadia gesehn hat, weiss wieso ich die serie nich abkann.. >-<#####

(1 BRAIN FUCK | � fuck my mind �)

11:49 am - ..was ist richtig?
...manchmal moechte man dinge tun, die fuer den koerper schlecht sind, aber umso besser fuer die eigene seele.
was ist wichtiger? und was ist richtig?

...langsam weiss ich es nicht mehr. was bringt mir eine froehliche seele, wenn der koerper kaputt ist, aber was soll mir ein gesunder koerper bringen, wenn meine seele traurig ist?

...manchmal ist vernunft wohl doch besser, als das was man wirklich moechte...
...ich denke seit stunden fast nur noch daran, mich morgen einfach in den zug zusetzen, und zu dir zu kommen. ....wenn ich nicht so verletzt waere.. koennte ich zu dir kommen, und mich, solange du krank bist, um dich kuemmern... ....aber ich glaube, das waere nur auf seelischer basis das richtige... ...wenn doch nur ich wenigstens gesund waere... ..ich wuerde mich so gerne um dich kuemmern koennen......

..ich liebe dich...

</center>das schoenste lied schrieb ich nicht auf papier, ich schrieb es in dein gesicht, mit den fingern siehst du nicht, was mein mund dir hinterliess, schau auf deiner haut und lies, such wo meine zunge war, such mein lied in deinem haar..</center>

current mood: sad

(1 BRAIN FUCK | � fuck my mind �)

2:51 am - @ m.
..keine sorge.. manche dinge wird man einfach nicht mehr los...
...manche dinge, wie unkraut, vergehen nicht... auch mit mir ist es nicht anders... ..oder schoene erinnerungen... ..die bleiben auch...

andere dinge wiederum verschwinden gott sei dank, wieder.... ...wie die schmerzen zum beispiel... die vergehen zum glueck bald wieder...

..und solange wir uns haben.. wird immer wieder alles okay.......

" i always knew i would look back on my tears and laugh, but i never knew i would look back on my laughter and cry..."

current mood: pain

(2 BRAIN FUCKs | � fuck my mind �)

2:46 am - tears...
reaching out in dead of night
emptiness by candlelight
memory, a haunted sea
souring in sudden rage

the damage plagued upon my love
driven by this selfish urge
to separate yourself from me
but not the way you planned

the gambit flow of shifting thought
she'll write a kiss upon my cross
and with each moment of despair
lay to heart a lovely tear

within each bone the salty sea
swims; an ocean silently
swims; the forest of my dreams
swims; the essence i call me

come bringing back now can't explain
the measures swept away in pain
hatred, will i escape your grasp?
buried feelings let me pass

i cannot kill this final flame
the fire that once consumed my heart
but hope must have some kind of fuel
and chance must keep this fire

the gambit flow of shifting thought
she'll write a kiss upon my cross
and with each moment of despair
lay to heart a lovely tear

within each bone the salty sea
swims; an ocean silently
swims; the forest of my dreams
swims; the essence i call me

[sampled interlude]

the gambit thought...
the gambit flow...
the gambit...

the gambit flow of shifting thought
she'll write a kiss upon my cross
and with each moment of despair
lay to heart a lovely tear

within each bone the salty sea
swims; an ocean silently
swims; the forest of my dreams
swims; the essence of my being

the gambit flow of shifting thought
[swimming out the tears in my eyes]
she'll write a kiss upon my cross
[looking for the shore]
and with each moment of despair
[i hope that this is the last time]
lay to heart a lovely tear
[i hope that this is the last time]

within each bone the salty sea
[swimming out the tears in my eyes]
swims; an ocean silently
[looking for the shore]
swims; the forest of my dreams
[i hope that this is the last time]
swims; the essence of my being
[i hope that this is the last time]

the gambit flow of shifting thought
[swimming out the tears in my eyes]
she'll write a kiss upon my cross
[looking for the shore]
and with each moment of despair
[i hope that this is the last time]
lay to heart a lovely tear
[i hope that this is the last time]

within each bone the salty sea
[swimming out the tears in my eyes]
swims; an ocean silently
[looking for the shore]
swims; the forest of my dreams
[i hope that this is the last time]
swims; the essence of my being
[i hope that this is the last time]...


i don't really understand, what's the lyric mean..... *sigh* but.. i love the song...

current mood: pain..........

(� fuck my mind �)

Thursday, February 21st, 2002
6:59 pm - gathering of the storm
it's so cold outside, can't you feel it?
i'll remain inside, within the warmth.
it's so dark outside, can't you see it?
i'll reamain within the light.
there is a storm outside, can't you feel it?
there is a storm outside, can't you feel it?


current mood: full of pain...

(1 BRAIN FUCK | � fuck my mind �)

Friday, February 15th, 2002
6:24 pm - gimme ur bloooood....!!!

Which Action Star Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

(4 BRAIN FUCKs | � fuck my mind �)

5:57 pm - brain fic....
feel the skins so hot
it's singing like the sun
see this unknown colour
invade the sky above
we will touch these fires
with our naked arms
and the wind will help us
passengers of the night
and our skin is burning
on a journey never ending
we will visit places
in a long lost world
feel you skin so hot
even night is trembling
between longing fingers
melts the sky away
burning naked bodies
kisses screen to screen
entering the valley
where will we meet james d.
they are waiting for the nightboat
every hour every day
'cause they heard about the story
whispering spies are everywhere
now the crowd will share the secret
but our sea is beyond time...


current mood: blank

(1 BRAIN FUCK | � fuck my mind �)

5:53 pm - lass mich...
niemand weiss, wie es aussieht
tief in mir drin
niemand weiss, wie es aussieht
tief in dir drin
doch eines lass dir sagen
ohne dich ohne dich
ohne dich macht das alles keinen sinn

lass mich lass mich lass mich
lass mich lass mich lass mich
bitte bitte lass mich
lass mich dein lakai sein
lass mich dein lakai sein
in dieser nacht

lass mich dein lakai sein
lass mich dein lakai sein

es fuehrt kein weg daran vorbei
es fuehrt kein weg daran vorbei
ohne dich ohne dich
geh ich nicht nach haus
will ich nicht nach haus

lass mich lass mich ...

und wir rennen ohne ziel
dabei wusste ich so viel
und wir rennen ohne ziel
dabei wusste ich so viel
[bitte bitte lass mich..]


current mood: blank

(1 BRAIN FUCK | � fuck my mind �)

11:57 am - days...
me:
<b>I</b> am Tuesday&apos;s Child

What day are you?


~~~
my boyfriend:
and <b>my b-friend</b> are a Wednesday&apos;s Child

What day are you?



current mood: nostalgic

(� fuck my mind �)

1:07 am - YEEEESSS!!!!
todays evening i called up with my b-friend again, and now, i am the luckiest human on earth!!!!!!!!!!!!!
because our private war is over, and he told me, that he want to meet me at saturday and sunday... y'know, i live in west germany, and he live in east germany :( .....
but we'll meet us, in the middle of germany.. that's for no one of us too far away....
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!! i wanna hug the whole world!!!!!!!!!! i am soooooo happy!!!! *crying with joy*

damn it! :) i'm really pretty tired! *lalala* ..i can sleep now like a happy and carefree newborn baby . :)

*kisses for all*

current mood: happy

(� fuck my mind �)

Thursday, February 14th, 2002
4:25 pm - toooday...
..i am extremely happy...
anyhow is it much weird, because i don't know, why i'm so very happy. *shrieks*

hum.. one thing tease me.. today it's definitely toooooooo cold........ >-<;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

current mood: freeze, but happy and in love.

(� fuck my mind �)

4:23 pm - hehehe.. :)



Which Star-Crossed Marvel Lover Are You?


rogue [and rogue from cxs too] are ever the best.. ;)


current mood: amused

(5 BRAIN FUCKs | � fuck my mind �)

3:04 pm - happy st. valentine's day to everyone!
last night, i call up my boyfriend, and we'd talked for almost two hours. and now, i'm feel much better.
it seems to me, that nothing exist which can kill our love....
and i feel so good, that i'd make some new photos from me. :)
okay, the quality is very low, but my cam isn't the best camera.. :(
the first picture is specific for my b-friend. :) i luv him so.. ~_~








give it all to birth
give it all to life
take it all for granted
until we turn and die...


current mood: loved

(2 BRAIN FUCKs | � fuck my mind �)

Wednesday, February 13th, 2002
1:14 pm - i'm really shocked...
...i am really such an disordered monster..!?
my character and my psyche are sick and shitty....

(1 BRAIN FUCK | � fuck my mind �)

1:09 pm - this is hard to know that..............
Personality Disorder Test
DisorderRating
Paranoid:High
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Very High
Antisocial:High
Borderline:Very High
Histrionic:Moderate
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Very High
Dependent:Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

-- Click Here To Take The Test --



current mood: shocked

(� fuck my mind �)

12:08 pm - except europa...
yesterday i've made a BIG discovery!!!!! ixalptraumxi told me about the texan gothic/electro band "except europa". and that band are GREEEAAAATTTT!!!. that sounds like a lil bit the cruxshadows!!! i love "except europa" after few seconds of listening one of their songs...
i've downloaded all mp3's from their mp3.com site. plz check out, and build your own opinion.

many thx to ixalptraumxi... *snuggles* [btw: i like the new haircut. ;) ]

current mood: aggravated

(2 BRAIN FUCKs | � fuck my mind �)

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